so i havent blogged in a couple days....mostly because ive been ridiculously sick. so sick in fact that i had to take yesterday off work :/ missing training = not good. but i was able to make up a half hour during lunch today, and i picked up a couple shifts at lifetime this week so at least i made it up? i also havent been able to work out this week since ive been so sick....no bueno. just means that when i start up again its going to be as hard as it was this week! oh well.....

talked to katy for a while tonight at work. she went and saw pastor jim and had a conversation with him.....seems like shes starting to get back on track again! i feel so badly when i see her straying and not caring....i cant say anything because thats EXACTLY where ive been the past few years and if nothing else ive probably influenced her to be that way! but i am finally realizing that thats the wrong way to live. and i want so badly for her to realize it too.

this is going to be a long weekend.......i work tomorrow and then i either have mels birthday dinner or im hanging out with katy, possibly both and possibly both at the same time, or i am just going to sit at home and let myself rest. then saturday theres a possibility i might be working at the OPlifespa for julie whos been sick, and then the LXlifespa holiday party at shars house. that should be interesting too. then sunday i have early church meeting about SOT, then focus, then big church, then im not sure what until 5 when theres a spa meeting and then a building meeting at lifetime. and then monday i start all over again. *sigh*

work is going pretty well, im still enjoying it for the most part. i feel like its over my head, but i also feel like i need to get on the floor and DO it to really get a feel for what its going to be like. i got to observe a lady on the floor today and i actually made a couple of suggestions in question form that turned out to be right. so i think i might be getting it more than i think i am. if not, hopefully ill catch on quickly :) either way, Apria is the best place on earth compared to reliable. just thinking about reliable makes me want to punch a baby.

i was telling katy tonight, and ill express it here. im a little nervous about my spiritual growth. i feel like i am making small baby steps, which are good! small steps like deleting numbers from my phone, deleting facebook, cutting certain people out of my life, making church a priority, getting set up with a mentor through church, etc. but i still feel like im not making any progress spiritually. i mean i guess the first logical step would be to cut the negative out of my life, but now when and how do i start adding the positive? im not in the Word daily like i should be. but when do i have time to be? between being exHAUSted from training for a new job, working the old job, being sick, working out, etc....i just havent even had a moment to myself! i guess thats where the sacrifice comes in. but i really dont even know where to sacrifice from. i guess i just need to pray for ways to sacrifice and really start focusing on Him.

and speaking of being sick......this headache ive had all night is turning borderline migraine, so i need to shut this computer off and shut my eyes before it gets there.