well im finally feeling better from my cold......and now im sick from my period. great. but im just starting to get cramps at 930 pm, which im hoping means ill sleep through most of them and be fine tomorrow.
work today wasnt all that great. ive been super pissy, probably because i was pmsing, but it was a bad day on top of that. lots of stuff going on financially thats got me really down, and then i found out that theyre not going to be as flexible about hours as they promised, they cant give me the higher payrate, were apparently not allowed to listen to headphones after all, and i think my supervisor might not be the easiest person to get along with. just wasnt that good of a day. so i was going to go to the gym to destress (ive also been pissy because i havent gone to the gym this week except i think monday and that makes me mad even if i do have a valid excuse), but i realized i didnt have time to work out. so i went home and did my makeup and then katy and david picked me up and drove me to cheesecake factory downtown where we celebrated mellys birthday! it was ok.....david was kind of being an ass. i ended up eating half of mellys dinner since im broke. ugh. and then melly drove me home and now im sick from my period. ive got a busy weekend ahead of me!
Friday, January 21, 2011
Thursday, January 20, 2011
so i havent blogged in a couple days....mostly because ive been ridiculously sick. so sick in fact that i had to take yesterday off work :/ missing training = not good. but i was able to make up a half hour during lunch today, and i picked up a couple shifts at lifetime this week so at least i made it up? i also havent been able to work out this week since ive been so sick....no bueno. just means that when i start up again its going to be as hard as it was this week! oh well.....
talked to katy for a while tonight at work. she went and saw pastor jim and had a conversation with him.....seems like shes starting to get back on track again! i feel so badly when i see her straying and not caring....i cant say anything because thats EXACTLY where ive been the past few years and if nothing else ive probably influenced her to be that way! but i am finally realizing that thats the wrong way to live. and i want so badly for her to realize it too.
this is going to be a long weekend.......i work tomorrow and then i either have mels birthday dinner or im hanging out with katy, possibly both and possibly both at the same time, or i am just going to sit at home and let myself rest. then saturday theres a possibility i might be working at the OPlifespa for julie whos been sick, and then the LXlifespa holiday party at shars house. that should be interesting too. then sunday i have early church meeting about SOT, then focus, then big church, then im not sure what until 5 when theres a spa meeting and then a building meeting at lifetime. and then monday i start all over again. *sigh*
work is going pretty well, im still enjoying it for the most part. i feel like its over my head, but i also feel like i need to get on the floor and DO it to really get a feel for what its going to be like. i got to observe a lady on the floor today and i actually made a couple of suggestions in question form that turned out to be right. so i think i might be getting it more than i think i am. if not, hopefully ill catch on quickly :) either way, Apria is the best place on earth compared to reliable. just thinking about reliable makes me want to punch a baby.
i was telling katy tonight, and ill express it here. im a little nervous about my spiritual growth. i feel like i am making small baby steps, which are good! small steps like deleting numbers from my phone, deleting facebook, cutting certain people out of my life, making church a priority, getting set up with a mentor through church, etc. but i still feel like im not making any progress spiritually. i mean i guess the first logical step would be to cut the negative out of my life, but now when and how do i start adding the positive? im not in the Word daily like i should be. but when do i have time to be? between being exHAUSted from training for a new job, working the old job, being sick, working out, etc....i just havent even had a moment to myself! i guess thats where the sacrifice comes in. but i really dont even know where to sacrifice from. i guess i just need to pray for ways to sacrifice and really start focusing on Him.
and speaking of being sick......this headache ive had all night is turning borderline migraine, so i need to shut this computer off and shut my eyes before it gets there.
talked to katy for a while tonight at work. she went and saw pastor jim and had a conversation with him.....seems like shes starting to get back on track again! i feel so badly when i see her straying and not caring....i cant say anything because thats EXACTLY where ive been the past few years and if nothing else ive probably influenced her to be that way! but i am finally realizing that thats the wrong way to live. and i want so badly for her to realize it too.
this is going to be a long weekend.......i work tomorrow and then i either have mels birthday dinner or im hanging out with katy, possibly both and possibly both at the same time, or i am just going to sit at home and let myself rest. then saturday theres a possibility i might be working at the OPlifespa for julie whos been sick, and then the LXlifespa holiday party at shars house. that should be interesting too. then sunday i have early church meeting about SOT, then focus, then big church, then im not sure what until 5 when theres a spa meeting and then a building meeting at lifetime. and then monday i start all over again. *sigh*
work is going pretty well, im still enjoying it for the most part. i feel like its over my head, but i also feel like i need to get on the floor and DO it to really get a feel for what its going to be like. i got to observe a lady on the floor today and i actually made a couple of suggestions in question form that turned out to be right. so i think i might be getting it more than i think i am. if not, hopefully ill catch on quickly :) either way, Apria is the best place on earth compared to reliable. just thinking about reliable makes me want to punch a baby.
i was telling katy tonight, and ill express it here. im a little nervous about my spiritual growth. i feel like i am making small baby steps, which are good! small steps like deleting numbers from my phone, deleting facebook, cutting certain people out of my life, making church a priority, getting set up with a mentor through church, etc. but i still feel like im not making any progress spiritually. i mean i guess the first logical step would be to cut the negative out of my life, but now when and how do i start adding the positive? im not in the Word daily like i should be. but when do i have time to be? between being exHAUSted from training for a new job, working the old job, being sick, working out, etc....i just havent even had a moment to myself! i guess thats where the sacrifice comes in. but i really dont even know where to sacrifice from. i guess i just need to pray for ways to sacrifice and really start focusing on Him.
and speaking of being sick......this headache ive had all night is turning borderline migraine, so i need to shut this computer off and shut my eyes before it gets there.
Saturday, January 15, 2011
216.4 (yesterday)
ok so i didnt blog yesterday. mostly because im sick :(
work was pretty good yesterday; my brain is fried but im catching on to whats going on. and we got to take quite a few breaks and play some games so it was more review than anything.
after work i went to the gym, same routine as yesterday (40 minutes, 30 of them @ 3 incline, 2.8 speed). I was still able to do it, but i had to push myself quite a bit more than i did thursday. after the gym i made some returns to walmart and target and then went home and made dinner - spaghetti and elbow noodles with seasoned chicken and pesto. it was soo good :D then i sat down and started watching a CSI marathon.........i had a tickle in the back of my throat all day but it was starting to hurt, and then i started passing out on the couch while i was watching tv. so i went downstairs to go to bed and then i kept waking up all throughout the night with a horrible sore throat!!
i finally got sick of it today around 11 so i got up and made a bowl of chicken noodle soup with crackers. i feel a tiny bit better so far but not much. i just feel wiped and my throat hurts. the aches are mostly gone but ugh. i just want to lay on the couch all day. unfortunately becky AND katys birthday parties are tonight. grrr. i guess we'll see what happens......
yeap ended up on the couch all day and all night. except for when i did beckys hair and makeup for her birthday which....might i add turned out AMAZING........aaron ended up bringing me food and we hung out and watched transformers for a couple hours while he annoyed the crap out of me, and then i continued to watch CSI until beck got home and then i went to bed.
the end.
work was pretty good yesterday; my brain is fried but im catching on to whats going on. and we got to take quite a few breaks and play some games so it was more review than anything.
after work i went to the gym, same routine as yesterday (40 minutes, 30 of them @ 3 incline, 2.8 speed). I was still able to do it, but i had to push myself quite a bit more than i did thursday. after the gym i made some returns to walmart and target and then went home and made dinner - spaghetti and elbow noodles with seasoned chicken and pesto. it was soo good :D then i sat down and started watching a CSI marathon.........i had a tickle in the back of my throat all day but it was starting to hurt, and then i started passing out on the couch while i was watching tv. so i went downstairs to go to bed and then i kept waking up all throughout the night with a horrible sore throat!!
i finally got sick of it today around 11 so i got up and made a bowl of chicken noodle soup with crackers. i feel a tiny bit better so far but not much. i just feel wiped and my throat hurts. the aches are mostly gone but ugh. i just want to lay on the couch all day. unfortunately becky AND katys birthday parties are tonight. grrr. i guess we'll see what happens......
yeap ended up on the couch all day and all night. except for when i did beckys hair and makeup for her birthday which....might i add turned out AMAZING........aaron ended up bringing me food and we hung out and watched transformers for a couple hours while he annoyed the crap out of me, and then i continued to watch CSI until beck got home and then i went to bed.
the end.
Thursday, January 13, 2011
216.4
maybe ill just use my weight for my titles on the days i weigh in :)
ps, the other day i was 214.8, then i was 216, now im 216.4!? what the crap.
i was only ONE minute late for work today, an improvement but i still need to do better. im going to make it my goal to ACTUALLY LEAVE the house by 7:15 in the morning. that should give me exactly enough time to get to work, park, get in, get coffee or breakfast or whatever, and be in my seat by 8. done.
work was super frustrating today. it was the first time we started using our screens in actual scenarios and i realized that i really have no idea what im doing! so did the rest of the class but still. im still confident that ill do well though. ive decided to start taking the stairs everywhere instead of using elevators. it. HURTS!!!!!!!! i decided to use the last 20 minutes of my lunch break to walk up and down the stairwells in the building for exercise.....i made it up 2 flights of stairs (walking mind you, not even running) and i felt like my heart was about to come through the veins in my neck it was pumping so hard, and it took me about 3 minutes to catch my breath. i wanted to cry. so. my goal is to just work on being more healthy in general. watching what im eating. watching when im eating. taking the stairs instead of elevators. walking around during my breaks instead of sitting in the break room. etc. etc.
after work went to lifetime and got on the treadmill for 40 minutes, 5 minute warm up 30 minute walk and 5 minute cool down. i pushed myself but not too hard.....felt amazing. yesterday i was having trouble keeping up a 2.8 pace with a 3 incline. tonight i did the entire 30 minutes at a 2.8 pace with a 3 incline. it didnt feel too bad! i mean...........2.8 is HORRIBLE......that should be like a snail pace. but im really trying to start out slow and make this a habit.....build myself from the bottom instead of trying to jump up to levels i cant keep up with. and im going to actually keep it up this time :)
after working out i came home and ate dinner, felt EXHAUSTED but i didnt want to go to bed so early so i went downstairs....i was going to go make a bunch of returns since that was my to do list for tonight, but i sat down on my bed and couldnt move. so instead i did tomorrows to do list (going through some piles of papers and getting the ones i need out, addressing thank you cards, etc). and i got that all done! wooohoo!! then i spent an hour on the phone with microsoft trying to get my microsoft office set up on my freaking computer. GAH. and now im finally going to bed.
i ate decently ok today, splurged on dinner a little bit, but the rest of the day was ok. breakfast i had 2 pcs of that wheat toast with peanut butter, morning break i had a little bit of granola, lunch time i had some spaghetti and a chocolate chip cookie, afternoon break i had a strawberry yogurt with granola mixed in, dinner i had the last bit of tuna on white bread, and one of those pasta side dish things in the packet (480 calories btw), a glass of apple juice, and a little later one of my brownie things.
k im about to pass out now...
ps, the other day i was 214.8, then i was 216, now im 216.4!? what the crap.
i was only ONE minute late for work today, an improvement but i still need to do better. im going to make it my goal to ACTUALLY LEAVE the house by 7:15 in the morning. that should give me exactly enough time to get to work, park, get in, get coffee or breakfast or whatever, and be in my seat by 8. done.
work was super frustrating today. it was the first time we started using our screens in actual scenarios and i realized that i really have no idea what im doing! so did the rest of the class but still. im still confident that ill do well though. ive decided to start taking the stairs everywhere instead of using elevators. it. HURTS!!!!!!!! i decided to use the last 20 minutes of my lunch break to walk up and down the stairwells in the building for exercise.....i made it up 2 flights of stairs (walking mind you, not even running) and i felt like my heart was about to come through the veins in my neck it was pumping so hard, and it took me about 3 minutes to catch my breath. i wanted to cry. so. my goal is to just work on being more healthy in general. watching what im eating. watching when im eating. taking the stairs instead of elevators. walking around during my breaks instead of sitting in the break room. etc. etc.
after work went to lifetime and got on the treadmill for 40 minutes, 5 minute warm up 30 minute walk and 5 minute cool down. i pushed myself but not too hard.....felt amazing. yesterday i was having trouble keeping up a 2.8 pace with a 3 incline. tonight i did the entire 30 minutes at a 2.8 pace with a 3 incline. it didnt feel too bad! i mean...........2.8 is HORRIBLE......that should be like a snail pace. but im really trying to start out slow and make this a habit.....build myself from the bottom instead of trying to jump up to levels i cant keep up with. and im going to actually keep it up this time :)
after working out i came home and ate dinner, felt EXHAUSTED but i didnt want to go to bed so early so i went downstairs....i was going to go make a bunch of returns since that was my to do list for tonight, but i sat down on my bed and couldnt move. so instead i did tomorrows to do list (going through some piles of papers and getting the ones i need out, addressing thank you cards, etc). and i got that all done! wooohoo!! then i spent an hour on the phone with microsoft trying to get my microsoft office set up on my freaking computer. GAH. and now im finally going to bed.
i ate decently ok today, splurged on dinner a little bit, but the rest of the day was ok. breakfast i had 2 pcs of that wheat toast with peanut butter, morning break i had a little bit of granola, lunch time i had some spaghetti and a chocolate chip cookie, afternoon break i had a strawberry yogurt with granola mixed in, dinner i had the last bit of tuna on white bread, and one of those pasta side dish things in the packet (480 calories btw), a glass of apple juice, and a little later one of my brownie things.
k im about to pass out now...
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
was 7 minutes late for work today.......i really need to start leaving EARLY for work grrr. work was pretty meh. my brain is kind of tired of learning i think! from morning break until lunch i wasnt even paying attention, instead i made up my to do lists for the next week. so i feel a little better being more organized and having a plan to get all my crap done. after work i was going to go to a KU clinic to get tested for diabetes, but it turns out you have to be there AT 5, so im gonna have to plan ahead and leave work early. im not terribly concerned about it, i just want to know. so anyway, went straight to lifetime and spent 30 minutes on the treadmill, came home and had dinner and now im watching tv with beck and ashley. i didnt eat horribly today. had 2 pcs of honey whole wheat toast with peanut butter for breakfast, mm cant remember for morning break, had mac n chz for lunch, and blueberry yogurt with becks granola in it for afternoon break. for dinner i had a bowl of chili with lots of cheese and corn chips (chips and cheese probably not a good idea but oh well it made it good) annnnd a brownie thing. the end.
and i really cant think of anything else. today was pretty blah.
and i really cant think of anything else. today was pretty blah.
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
........
yeah screw coming up with post names every day.
i was 30 minutes late to work this morning, partially because i took too long getting ready, partially because my car was frozen shut AND had a thick layer of ice covering it. but i got to make it up on my lunch break which was nice. work was ok, kind of long buuut went fast at the same time? after work went to lifetime and picked up my check, talked to the spa girls for quite a while, asked ben why he hadnt emailed me back, and walked on the treadmill for 30 minutes. talked to mom the whole way home plus some, ate tons of crap, and now im journaling. im absolutely exhausted so i think ill probably go to bed soon.
i havent mentioned yet that i quit smoking :D im not sure when....several weeks ago and then i cheated on new years. but other than that im done.
immmmmmmmm also nervous that i might be diabetic. i mentioned something to mom that made her question it, and then she reminded me that my doctor told me i was close to it a few years ago, and my birthfather was diabetic. and then i started looking up symptoms and i am showing some. so i might go to the KU student clinic and get tested, though im not sure i want to know the answer. while im at it i might see if i can get tested for STD's too.....im 99% sure im clean but i should probably know for sure. something to pray about!
i was 30 minutes late to work this morning, partially because i took too long getting ready, partially because my car was frozen shut AND had a thick layer of ice covering it. but i got to make it up on my lunch break which was nice. work was ok, kind of long buuut went fast at the same time? after work went to lifetime and picked up my check, talked to the spa girls for quite a while, asked ben why he hadnt emailed me back, and walked on the treadmill for 30 minutes. talked to mom the whole way home plus some, ate tons of crap, and now im journaling. im absolutely exhausted so i think ill probably go to bed soon.
i havent mentioned yet that i quit smoking :D im not sure when....several weeks ago and then i cheated on new years. but other than that im done.
immmmmmmmm also nervous that i might be diabetic. i mentioned something to mom that made her question it, and then she reminded me that my doctor told me i was close to it a few years ago, and my birthfather was diabetic. and then i started looking up symptoms and i am showing some. so i might go to the KU student clinic and get tested, though im not sure i want to know the answer. while im at it i might see if i can get tested for STD's too.....im 99% sure im clean but i should probably know for sure. something to pray about!
Monday, January 10, 2011
i realized today that this blog is taking the place of my facebook in some ways....not a bad thing :)
got up at the buttcrack of dawn (aka 6am) to get ready for work since we had a snowstorm last night.....i ended up leaving at my normal time and got to work 5 minutes late. lol. which was weird bc a ton of people were well over an hour late. work was frustrating for the first half of today, we didnt have our normal trainer and the lady we had talked to us like we were four years old. ALWHERGLAHWELGIAHJ i wanted to smack someone. after work i got dressed to go to the gym, but the roads were HORRIBLE so i decided to go home and walk on the crappy treadmill in the curnutts basement instead. wellll that didnt end up happening, instead i ate a ton of crap food. imagine that. ps, i weighed myself this morning for the first time in a long time..........214.8. yeah. i wanted to die. so back to me eating a bunch of crap......ugh. then aaron came over and brought me a huge box of food so i dont have to eat ramen anymore :) sweet, but ridiculous. i think i may need to be a bit stronger in my approach of telling him to BUZZ OFF. *sigh* we watched a bit of tv and then watched Dear John (stupid movie i thought). and now hes gone and im curled up in bed with my heated blanket. i feel like i have such a huge to do list and not nearly enough time to do it, and this stupid snow just puts a damper on EVERYTHING. grr.
thanking God today for people like aaron who bring me food when i have none and becky who loans me gas money when i have none. thankful for my amazing family. thankful that i have a working car and thankful for heated blankets. and for my cat. even if he is a little POOP. time to go night night so i can get a good nights sleep and be ready to learn tomorrow! :D
got up at the buttcrack of dawn (aka 6am) to get ready for work since we had a snowstorm last night.....i ended up leaving at my normal time and got to work 5 minutes late. lol. which was weird bc a ton of people were well over an hour late. work was frustrating for the first half of today, we didnt have our normal trainer and the lady we had talked to us like we were four years old. ALWHERGLAHWELGIAHJ i wanted to smack someone. after work i got dressed to go to the gym, but the roads were HORRIBLE so i decided to go home and walk on the crappy treadmill in the curnutts basement instead. wellll that didnt end up happening, instead i ate a ton of crap food. imagine that. ps, i weighed myself this morning for the first time in a long time..........214.8. yeah. i wanted to die. so back to me eating a bunch of crap......ugh. then aaron came over and brought me a huge box of food so i dont have to eat ramen anymore :) sweet, but ridiculous. i think i may need to be a bit stronger in my approach of telling him to BUZZ OFF. *sigh* we watched a bit of tv and then watched Dear John (stupid movie i thought). and now hes gone and im curled up in bed with my heated blanket. i feel like i have such a huge to do list and not nearly enough time to do it, and this stupid snow just puts a damper on EVERYTHING. grr.
thanking God today for people like aaron who bring me food when i have none and becky who loans me gas money when i have none. thankful for my amazing family. thankful that i have a working car and thankful for heated blankets. and for my cat. even if he is a little POOP. time to go night night so i can get a good nights sleep and be ready to learn tomorrow! :D
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